#15 affairs of the ♥

would u be mine?

my friends has been tryin extremely hard...
to matchmake me with one of her guy friends.
and it's really getting on my nerves. grrr..
i know she's pretty concern about me not having a bf yet.
and i appreciate her being worried i'd not be able to find one myself.
well, she even more *kan chiong than me when it comes to finding myself a bf.
haha. she's just like my mum, nagging about me not having a bf at 20.

"ah girl ar.. how come so old still no boyfriend?"

if you want an answer from the lady here,i'd say...

"he's still in a coma lah.."

single-hood has been a part of ME all my life.
when i took in my first breath when i was a foetus.
wailing at the top of my lungs, i learn to wipe my own tears.
when liquid food becomes solid, i learn to eat by myself.

i started walking on both feet, falling and getting up again alone.

going to school seeing friends being cared for by their boyfriends..
i learn to take care of myself even more when i'm alone.
being independant for the last 2 decades.
has taught me how to stay strong and perservere w/o the need of a boyfriend. *claps*
i may seem strong and big on the outside.
but no one knew how much i went through on the inside.
now.. my heart yearns to find the ONE made for me.
so.. i'm on a Mission Possible to find him..
and when i do, i'll make sure. he doesn't leave my side.

forever he'll stick by ME! (:
we'll walk through the deepest valleys,

climb over the highest mountains.

swim across the widest ocean,

dive deep into the carribean sea.

walk down the endless sea shore,

hand in hand we'll see.

till death we'll never part from each other,

till the end it's our destiny.

i've never fancied writing poems.

though when i was younger i realli try to come up with nice ones.

but i gave up writing when i could make none.

blame it on my english teacher.

vocabulary was an alien to me at that time,

now i'm much older.

i know there's a thing called dictionary.

HAHA.

anw, it seems that each time i start typing, inspiration just falls in.

one word starts everything, and soon i find it complete.

each time inspirations comes, it's when i don't realise it,

but at the end of each tiring day, i smile and am pleased with what i see.

now that i'm on a mission, i make sure i'd fail to admit defeat.
god of love will soon give up, and let me find my prince.
everyday.. i pray hard that God would remove the sleeping spell.
and bring him soon to me.

though life isn't always how i wanted,
but it's how God wants me to live it, his way.
it's just the matter of time,
HE will soon find me at the right place at the right time.
God has been a faithful daddy, taking care of me for 2 decades.
showering me with love, tears of joy and big hugs.

but now..
i'm sorry daddy, i'm letting you go so i can find the ONE for me.
please don't blame me for doing so,
because my happiness is just for ME.
and when OUR hearts are joint together, we'll serve you fervently.
till death we'll fight the devils, to bring glory to your name.
so bless me, my beloved daddy.
you're the sweetest man i've seen.
you died for me when i was in planning,
till birth, only i found i'm free.
your blood has cleanse my inpurities.
i'm thankful for what you did.
oh daddy, oh daddy, please tell me.
who my prince charming, is it HIM?

will i find him soon?

i don't know myself either.

we'll see.. when it's time, it's time.

love love,
miss.jo